Thursday, September 30, 2010

I'll take one to go, thank you!

I first want to share something wonderful that I'm looking forward to starting tomorrow. I chose tomorrow because it's the 1st of the month and happens to be on a Friday. Instead of the typical "hey I'm going on a diet, starting Monday.." why not flip things around a bit! A beautiful soul (Garnet) has inspired me with "30 Days of Truth." I look at it as if I'm completely stripping myself of all clothes and makeup and being completely open. Okay, haha that's a very strange and maybe uncomfortable analogy, but each day will be the truth, honesty, exactly what you see is what you get. I'm ready to open myself up a little more and perhaps along the way I'll learn more about myself. I recommend all of you to do this. Even if you don't want to share this with the world, do it for you.

Perhaps in months or years from now you can look back at these 30 days and see what has changed, improved or perhaps realize you're living in circles! I'm filled with so many emotions thinking of the next 30 days, overall I'm excited.

30 Days of Truth
The idea is simple: 30 days, a topic a day, to tell the absolute truth.

I thought this was a genius idea, even the title. Sometimes it is very hard to speak the truth, even to yourself. Many of the topics will be easy to talk about, answers I have known forever, others may prove to be questions I’ve never asked myself because I am simply afraid of the answer. I am hoping that my responses will surprise me—teach me some new things, and reaffirm the things I’ve known all along.

It’s bound to be a journey of some sort.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Courtesy of the wonderful, talented Hope.

This leads a little into my next topic or perhaps same topic. Either way my thoughts.. A few weeks back I was feeling that life was going rather smoothly, a little too smoothly. No bumps or obstacles that I could see. Then again that kind of crap always creeps up on you when you're not expecting it. Well, it did just that! I then had a bit of a set back and hit my stress level. In all honesty I went past my limit and broke down. It was terrible. I never want to be that stressed out or upset again (never say never.. I know..). It's so easy to smile and say I'm great when things aren't great. I know when things are bad when I can't even do that! The stress made me physically sick and I finally headed back to work today. I'm always thankful for these 'hiccups' along the way because they make me stronger. I definitely got knocked down and slowly picking myself back up. I'm happy I went through what I did because now I realize I need to worry about me for a bit. I've put me off for far too long that it's time to take another look at my priorities. I have a few ideas up my sleeves which I'll share soon!

I'm truly looking forward to what's to come in life and putting these past few weeks behind me. I'm letting people handle their own problems if they don't involve me. Giving myself a chance to get to know myself again, haha!

Love you all - Peace