Saturday, September 27, 2008

I seen you walkin' down in Chinatown

Assalomu alaikum!

So it may not be 4 years; however, from my last post (my first post) I seemed to have misplaced my motivation. Here I am at 3 minutes past midnight and it snuck up on me like a little mosquito! What a night I had (which I'll follow up with a separate post), but for now I am going to back track a little if you don't mind.

The surgery back in June went as well as it could have. The newest of masses were both benign. The larger one was removed, while the Dr decided to leave the smaller one in there. I wish I could have had a say in it, since he made the decision shortly after knocking me out with the poisonous yet delicate gas, lol. In all honesty, I was very upset at first; however, since the second mass was not close to the larger one they would have had to make a separate incision. Perhaps in 6 months or so it will grow in size and cause pain and will need to be removed.. but that'll be another blog for another day. I can't be too upset as I am extremely happy that everything turned out great. It could have been worse, right? That's such a great saying..

I'll place that a side and let me pull out the latest. I've been introduced to painful little cysts inside my right ovary and a ruptured one in the left. For those who have had it, I'm so sorry that you ever had to go through that. Anyone who has not and maybe had kidney stones.. they catergorize as the same pain. It's unbelievable how our bodies have a mind of their own, does that seriously make any sense?

So.. along the way I've had to switch Drs. Let me just say good.. no GREAT Dr's are very hard to come by. If ever you feel slightly uncertain or unhappy with a physician, switch! It seems to be a hastle at first, but believe me you'll be so much happier and secure in the end. This is your health and your life that some stranger is in charge of so be as picky as possible. Needless to say yes I had to find a great OBGYN and she's AMAZING!

Now.. I'm at a bit of a road block; however, I have an appt in a few weeks which will hopefully supply me with more answers and helpful information to move forward. I'll try and keep you updated throughout this crazy journey. I don't know what other female part of my body is not distorted, because it feels I've been cursed everywhere. Oy vey!

With all of that said I'm trying to make myself as healthy as possible. I figure I have no control over the uncontrollable so why not do everything I can do right? If I can watch what I put inside of my body, that helps. I've gone a week without biting my nails, LOL. Hey it's an addiction which is unhealthy so that is on my oh so very very long checklist! Are there things you would like to change in your life that you tell yourself over and over again but can't quite stay with it? A list is pretty cool, it kind of is there to smack you in the ass every so often and say.. 'hey remember me? i'm what you don't want to do.. did you forget about me that quickly?'.. If there are things you want to change and need someone to motivate you or just check up on you every so often, let me know. I would absolutely lovvvve to help :)

I love you all so much :) KT