Have you ever watched a movie where the woman puts a hold on life, takes off someplace exotic and starts all over? Sometimes, you may think that's what you'd love to do but you know it's close to impossible with everything going on in your life. I can't imagine how many times I've felt that way. Back in High School I only had one College that I wanted to go to. It was out in California and because it was so expensive and I couldn't imagine being that far away from my family, I never followed through. In honesty, that's always been in the back of mind with the word "Regret" follow by a question mark (?).
I don't think the idea of starting over necessarily means a new change in location. It's just 'Change' in general. I've been needing this for quite some time. A lifestyle change so to speak. I've become stressed with certain parts of my life and I was reminded that this is the only life that I, Katie will ever have. That once it's over, the curtain will come down and we'll see the words, The End (thanks for playing).
It's easy for me to look around and find things that make me happy. It's even easier to live each day and find things for others to make them happy. The thing I don't do though is focus on what doesn't make me happy and try to eliminate that from my life. So, that's been my goal recently. One of my many stresses and something that I've been yearning to change is what I do day to day. I've felt that I need to make a change with work and so I have. It was a difficult decision to make. I thought about the consequences of my leaving my job and I also thought about if I had stayed. So, I'm moving on. This is a huge life changing event for me as I've spent the last 5 years in my life at the same place. It's a routine, which I bet everyone can agree is a hard thing to break.
We get so comfortable in our lives, whether it's work, relationships or lack of hobbies. We tend to get a little nervous when we want to remove or add something from our life. The uncertainty of what could happen leaves up thinking about the worst possible scenario so what do we do? We do nothing. We continue to live a life that may not be completely fulfilling to us because we're scared of change. It sure is a scary thing but how many beautiful things have happened from change? A lot if you stop to think about it.
So here I am sharing with you something that is scary yet exciting. Something that is making me want to jump out of my skin and scream because I'm so happy about what is waiting in my future. I've made a change and you know who it's for? Me. I finally did something for this girl right here.
I hope that if you're in a situation, a rut let's say and you've been wanting to get out. Make a list of pro's and con's. Remember that this is the only life you get, as you. You need to live it how you want to. Don't let anyone tell you, that you can't do something. Don't let anyone try to alter the decision you're yearning to make. Look in the mirror and tell yourself "I do deserve to be happy and I'm the only one that can make that happen."