Thursday, October 21, 2010

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Happy Thursday!

I'm still sick and I want to thank my laptop for existing. Keeping me a little occupied throughout the week as I am constantly trying to get comfortable. Once I do I have the internet at my hands while my head is laying on the pillow. Sounds silly and at times I dispise the internet even existing but I really appreciate it these past few weeks.

I had to go back and reread Day 1 & 2 for this specific topic. I'm very insecure with myself and it's something that I'm pretty sure I'll always be battling. I will say I'm working on it, always say that I suppose but I couldn't tell you how much progress I've had. There are things I do better with than before and other things that I still feel the same about. If any of this makes sense... just bare with me.

I asked Charlie what he thought people compliment me most on and he pointed to my heart... The heart is a beautiful part of us as it keeps up alive, strong, pure.. If ever you feel confused or upset feeling lost, turn off any noise around you, isolate yourself and put your hand on your heart. Feel your heart beating, that's real. You're real, life is really happening. The most important thing in your life is you and that heart is there helping you, your best friend who hides away but protects you.

I know looking at pictures the average size of a heart and it's funny to me think about Love. I have so much love, I feel it and know it's there. I love so many people and care so much that it's hard to believe it all fits in there. I thank my parents for raising me to use my heart, to get upset when I hurt people, to cry when I lose someone, to greet everyone with a hug and when I leave them because I want to. I thank my heart for letting me fall in love and then having my heart broken just to know what it feels like to love, be hurt and hurt others.

My heart has taught me so much about who I am and when something happens and I feel some sort of emotion it's just reminding me, 'hey I'm in here still, don't worry.. not going anywhere.' I love my heart and I'm glad that people feel I have a good heart.

Thank you, I love you all.