Monday, October 25, 2010

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

"Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes is certain for those who are friends."

I think it's safe to say that we have all lost someone we love. When someone passes the beginning is unreal, nothing seems to be as it is. We feel it's make believe and they'll walk back through that door smiling like they always did. Waiting to hear them laugh or feeling you need to call them to tell them something that only they would understand.

Then shortly after reality begins to suffocate us and we can't imagine getting on with our lives without that person with us. In our eyes nothing will ever be the same. Our heart is breaking and it hurts, the worst pain ever. Just the feeling knowing we can never hold them again. And then.. as time goes on our heart heals. It may not ever be completely whole again but it doesn't hurt nearly as much as it did before.

Have you ever lost someone and felt all of those emotions? I have and you know.. I'm still here. My heart is beating at times not strong as others but it is. I still cry time and time again thinking about people that I've lost in my life and there's sadly a good amount. At the same token.. I smile too thinking about the memories because I'm happy I have those moments.

So yes, there have been genuine people who I have crossed paths with during my life that I have lost and currently I am living without. For a long time I felt I would never make it without them physically being here. Believe when I say I'm not religious as I once was but I know that some of their characteristics I clung on to so a little of me reminds me of them.

I love you guys.